urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:promise_breaker being wrong never felt so right ..n.i.c.o.l.e.. 2005-01-02T20:20:57Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:promise_breaker:48643 2005-01-02T20:20:57Z 2005-01-02T20:20:57Z <a name="cutid1"></a><br />sometimes i think life is horrible.. or either really amazing. sometimes people come into your life and change everything, sometimes they leave before you get to say goodbye, or say goodbye on a good note for that matter. sometimes i want to run away, run from everything i know. sometimes i want to look people in the eyes and tell them exactly how i feel about them. i shouldnt worry about making other people happy first, i should make myself happy first. and i have been happy. ive been so happy. until someone calls me and makes me feel like shit and then i feel depressed. i hate that. i hate how i dont have the heart to be like "we're over. please leave me alone". i would love that. i truly would. its horrible, so horrible. i cant keep pretending im happy in the relationship that im in, because im not. im not at all. <br /><br />when i think about saying goodbye to the past 2 years of my life.. it makes me sad. sad because im losing someone i loved? a little. scared of being alone? yes. and i know how horrible that is, to stay with someone because you dont want to be alone. im also scared because i know eventually someone will want to be with me, and ill want to be with them and then its final. its over. he wont be there. thats the part that always gets me. or how he will find some other girl. selfish? yes. i cant help that. i remember when we first started going out, i couldnt wait to see him or be with him. and i always felt like such an idiot. i couldnt stop smiling and i never wanted to say goodbye. we could spend hours doing absolutely nothing and that would be the best night i ever had. and i miss that, i miss that so much. i miss being in love that way. i wish i had someone to love like that, or love me like that. i seem so pathetic, but whatever. <br /><a name='cutid1-end'></a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:promise_breaker:28792 2003-08-29T03:16:48Z 2003-08-29T03:16:48Z haha fuck yea!! good charlotte taking home viewers choice award!! so fucking happy about that. they deserve it. rock on. and they all looked so incredibly amazing. i wonder what happened to pauls family? cuz at the end when they were interviewed they said something about it. hmm i should find out.<br /><br />also afi took home mtv 2. seriously so great. but what happened with the all-american rejects and simple plan?? they should of got it not 50!!! grrrr :( oh well win some, lose some.<br /><br />ok im out. i wanna talk to my bruberry.. who isnt on at the moment. *sigh* i love him so much.. 8 days till 8 months &lt;33 happy about that. love him so much &lt;333333333